What the HELL is that?

Also, January, awesome. February... March.. . first week of April, not that awesome.

Ready to get right back to to Nov, Dec, January type results.

Need more awesome.

what a visual

Although a few people have commented that they can see a difference in my weight, I haven't really seen it. So I was playing around with my weight/calorie tracker and came across this:

That. That I can see. I am feeling pretty proud of that slope.

I'm curious how long it takes for people to adjust their mental image of themselves. I've read a lot of people nearing goal or in maintenance struggling to get their new look into their mental reality. I wonder what sorts of things I can do now to get in touch with my body, so that I can mentally adjust as my weight and shape starts changing. I'll have to research that.

on speaking terms

If I had a formula for bypassing trouble, I would not pass it round.  Trouble creates a capacity to handle it.  I don't embrace trouble; that's as bad as treating it as an enemy.  But I do say meet it as a friend, for you'll see a lot of it and had better be on speaking terms with it.  

~Oliver Wendell Holmes

Stepping on the scale this morning and seeing that I'd hit a mini-goal felt... peaceful. In the past, I'd achieve a loss or a goal and see it as a victory. I think in the past I embraced weight loss like a battle.  My goal: to win, to defeat, to destroy, to overcome. 

Everything feels so different now. I see how so many things are connected to my relationship with food, my body, and my thinking. I'm not trying to fight that battle. I'm not sure if I really would have ever been able to win - and if I had, I doubt it would have been for very long. Instead, I've completely changed the game and, as Holmes put it, established some very strong diplomatic ties to my former "troubles."

The scale will show ups and downs, I'm quite sure. I'm not worried or fearful about it though. I do not control the scale. However, I choose what my relationship will be with several factors that influence the scale. I'm simply going to do the work on me - fine tuning those relationships - and let the numbers take care of themselves.