If I had a formula for bypassing trouble, I would not pass it round. Trouble creates a capacity to handle it. I don't embrace trouble; that's as bad as treating it as an enemy. But I do say meet it as a friend, for you'll see a lot of it and had better be on speaking terms with it.
~Oliver Wendell Holmes
Stepping on the scale this morning and seeing that I'd hit a mini-goal felt... peaceful. In the past, I'd achieve a loss or a goal and see it as a victory. I think in the past I embraced weight loss like a battle. My goal: to win, to defeat, to destroy, to overcome.
Everything feels so different now. I see how so many things are connected to my relationship with food, my body, and my thinking. I'm not trying to fight that battle. I'm not sure if I really would have ever been able to win - and if I had, I doubt it would have been for very long. Instead, I've completely changed the game and, as Holmes put it, established some very strong diplomatic ties to my former "troubles."
The scale will show ups and downs, I'm quite sure. I'm not worried or fearful about it though. I do not control the scale. However, I choose what my relationship will be with several factors that influence the scale. I'm simply going to do the work on me - fine tuning those relationships - and let the numbers take care of themselves.
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